'and we will worship, worship forever in Your presence we will sing'
I sing it out loud, with a longing heart. But I'm standing here at the kitchen sink trying so hard to find You HERE.
Forever in Your presence..Yes Lord!
But I feel this pain and this longing because it is NOT YET
The other night when I was full of the Holy Spirit, I felt it, Your presence. So close, so full of joy and love for You.
The first week after it was still there. Bursting out of my soul, unable to keep silent.
I also felt kind of sad, missing something, melancholic.
Now I know what it is.. it is because it is NOT YET
the closer I come the more I know what I'm still missing
the closer I feel You the more I feel that heaven is far away
and as long as I'm on this earth there will be this heartache this deep, deep longing to be one with my God and Father
but this pain isn't just painful though because it also makes me stretch forward reaching out for more of You in me THIS moment with in my heart the certainty that not yet only means that THE BEST is YET TO COME
'zand kun je niet drinken lieverd' zei ik maar is dat echt zo?
ik weet niet of bijen kunnen zingen en zijn 'vriendjes' die je niet kunt zien ook niet waar?
soms wil ik graag dat je kleren schoon blijven en je haren netjes maar waarom?
en is het echt zo moeilijk om mijn tempo even aan jouw wereldje gelijk te laten lopen?
hoe komt het toch dat mijn fantasie het opgeeft na 10 keer hetzelfde spelletje maar jij nog lang niet klaar bent?
'mama ik ben een peuter en jij een volwassene' en dat zegt misschien wel alles
'God made childhood joyous, full of life, bubbling over with laughter, playful, bright and Sunny. We should put into their childhood days just as much Sunshine and gladness, just as much cheerful pleasure as possible. Pour in the Sunshine about them in youth. Let them be HAPPY, encourage all innocent joy, provide pleasant games for them, romp and play with them; be a CHILD again among them. Then God's blessing will come upon your home, and your children wil grow up Sunny-hearted, gentle, affectionate, joyous themselves and joy-bearers to the world.'
